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Minggu, 24 Februari 2013

Keep hurting Yourself or Forget him?

Actually, just share experience today in English or Indonesia. It is difficult to say in English, but afraid if someone wanna know what my heart says and know what I mean, it is exactly hurt him or her.

Just wanna tell about love, because you know what I have just seen the synopsis of Rectoverso, one of the Indonesia film which I want to see. I predict this story will full of meaning, although yeah you know.

One of the story of this film is about "Hanya Isyarat", I like this part of it. Maybe this film representative my life's story, maybe. But the words in the film said, "I can just see from the shadow of his back". Oh My God, it is so sad and desperate for me. It means you like someone, but you just can see him from behind, and moreover, you just see the shadow of him. You can't look his face. You also aint say that you miss him. So desperate, yeah. I haven't known the story all. But I do believe this film will make me cry (haha).

Sometimes, when we see and meet someone who cares us, we will be happy and so pleasure. Also sometimes, if we give time to him  but he never care about us, addition he doesn't recognize us.

Just like the story above, we love someone, but our  tongue are so numb, but our eyes never close to stare at him. We just see him from his back, from behind. Pretending you are doing sometimes on your table, but your mind is on his hair, your eyes on his smile's shadow, your heart is on beat of his heart wave, your hand tremble when you see him laughing, and you just sit behind. What do you feel?

When it is raining, you just sit on the behind of glass door seeing him who also waiting rain off.  Although you bring an umbrella, you never take it and still keep in your bag. You confuse, are you waiting the rain or waiting him? But, you smile when he smiles.When he neats her hair because it is wet, you also try to neat your hair. When he talks with his friends, you will keep silent, trying to catch what he is talking about, still keeping distance and pretend like other people who wait rain off. But when he sometimes looks back face to the door you stand, you close your face with your book that you have taken from your bag suddenly. When he back facing in front of, you drop the book to your bag still with your pale face. But who will see you if you keep your face close, huh? Rain stops,he walk slowly and turn left, you still staring at him, waiting him until he  does n't exist.

How do you feel?


How do you feel? Sad or happy. We feel happy because we can make the people we love or like happy. With us, we can make him smile. But, also we feel sad because our message never be sent to him. He never what we feel, although we for many times give him many attentions. We give all the time to him, indirectly we feel just help him,and the time goes the feeling blowing and make us happy because loving someone. Sometimes when riding bicycles, we imagine ride bicycle together.

Time never waiting us. And become as usual habit when we take care of him. We forget, we have been hurt by ourselves. COnfused,will we stop or just continue. Beside life is choice, but love also choose. We are human, free to choose, always happy with the hurt, forgetting the scarred, or avoid him and make distance from him.
If I am given a chance,maybe I will choose keep hurting myself, because seeing the people we love is happier.

Thats all my story about love today.
Just like sensitive girl, see you :)

Gleen Fredly-Malaikat Juga Tahu


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