I try To be Useful for Others

In this night I am very happy actually. But there is something make my mind is disturbed by something that I know what it is. Just like my past thinking about living here, I feel that I loss my soul, my spirit and my warmth to other. I feel that I am alone, I don not why? I try to be happy everyday, but there are some that disturbing me everyday, I want like yesterday that I can be useful for my arround, that my activities are not limited by time and environemnt.

I tell who I was yesterday.
I am a sweet girl who likes sport and moving. I love scout very much. Following Scout, I know each other, I know them I know how to understand other people understanding, I know how I can build my own self confidence. From that I follow many activities and trusted to be a representative of each activities, from OSIS, MPK, UBALOKA (Unit Bantu Pertolongan Pramuka) like SAR Team, committee of some events. I loved that untl now of course. I am good at speaking with burning self confidence especiallu in English when High School. I bukid my own Self confidence with my hand and my feet without my teacher know more about me. I stand up and bring my self to the stage. and I was ver proud of myself.

Then I know that I cant find the situation like yesterday "today". I know that I am little girl who need friends who can support me to fight and I loss it now. I'll try to find the people who want to build our self confidence together, but here, they jut think how to get good mark ini their subject, only want to get way to pass from here, just try to be proud to their parents in their own way. Why we try together?

Look, they only they can, and how with me? how with other? You think you just a man who want to be pass here? No. You say that we must work together. Work together doesn't mean with cheating together not just happy playing a futball together but try to take me, take other to come.

Then I have not interersted in any subject in my class. How a pity I am. How become I will.

In 23-26 December 2012, I met with my scout friends, from my junior until my senior. I got some learning from them. We are an usual people, If we want to be special, then make yourself special to other.

Actually, I must thank to God, because. I am a girl who has evrything in the world, but I can't say Alhamdulilllah everyday, Why it is important. I learnt from my friends.

"I am satpam in a Mall in Tegal, I was graduated this year. I want to continue my study,but I must think my family first" But you know, she always smile everyday. She played with us, She wim together in her empty time and try to be useful followed UBALOKA activity, she made her empty to be useful for others and keep smile everyday.

I just try to be wise to myself. Who we are, Who I am, We must trust to ourself, that we have skill to help other and we have a weakness to need others. I always ask to myself from I was in kindergarten " Why I am here?" Why God creates me? Why? Why I am not here? Why?

Still looking for the answer, I answer it, I am happy not because I have abrilliant brain, not because I am rich, not because I can go to school. I am happy because my friends can give their trust to me, trust tom help them. They give me opportunity to win the games not because I am a good player, but because they give opoortunity and trust tome.
If I don't have get their trust here, I will always try and try. Never give up!

Cheers for today. Start from O now!
Happy new year 2013.